I found out about him while I was living in Seattle.
Honestly, and oh dear god I hope he doesn’t take offense to this, when I learned about Markiplier, I hated him. I absolutely could not stand him because my roommate would blast his videos until 5am when I had to get up at 6:30am for class. I had asked her over and over to either put earphones on or just move to the living room, since the computer light kept me up anyway, but she never did. I was forced to listen to that man scream and chatter in my ears all. Night. Long. I never got any sleep, and I am surprised that I even passed my classes that quarter. No matter what I did to make her leave the room or just turn him down or whatever, she got around it and just kept making me hear him and PewDiePie. This did not change until I finally moved rooms. I hated the very mention of him after that, and I would hear nothing about him or the great things he has done because I was just so wrapped up in how it was HIS voice that kept me awake and it was HIM that took away so many hours of sleep, that really, I was more angry at him than my roommate, which was totally unfair, but how I felt nonetheless.
Later on, my friend stumbled into a relationship with someone that I play Minecraft and record things with on occasion, and he is a die hard Markiplier fan. Often, he would tell me about him and try to get me to watch him, but I would get angry and say no. ‘He’s annoying and loud and stupid and I just HATE him!’, I would say. I later had to explain why I felt this way, but nothing truly changed. My friend kept trying though, which just made me hate Mark even more.
Eventually, though, when I moved to my current location, my friend did a stream of Five Nights at Freddy’s, but he had only played the demo, and I was curious about the full game. I searched it on YouTube, and low and behold, Markiplier had played it. I think he was the only one that had popped up for me, otherwise I would have just clicked elsewhere, regardless, I clicked his video, and I sat through the entire series.
And I laughed. I laughed and screamed and hid under my covers until the very end, and I was not disappointed with the videos, or any of the others I watched afterwards.
Since then, I have been watching every video and feeling incredibly guilty for saying what I had said and acting as I did all because my roommate wouldn’t let me sleep, and Mark was just the voice she forced me to listen to.
I like his honesty and his deep connection to his fans. He truly cares, and it is totally evident. My friend stayed in Seattle for PAX while Mark was there, and he kept telling me how Mark was so kind and funny to everyone for the whole 5 or 6 hours he was there just to see his fans. I want to be like that one day. Making people smile and feel important is my biggest goal with what I want to do.
I have been wanting to make a YouTube channel ever since I started High School, but I was too afraid to put out videos out of fear that the bullies I had to deal with would see and make fun of me. I was always taught that my ideas and dreams and anything I wanted to do, really, was not important, and I should just shut my mouth and walk away, because nobody cares. I went through High School that way, and I never pursued my dream, despite having all of the equipment for it. I could have filmed at home, edited at school with the software I was taught with, and uploaded from there, but I never did, because I didn’t think I was important enough to be listened to.
When I learned about Mark, though, everything just changed. He often tells his fans that he believes in them, and he wants us to chase our dreams. After hearing him say that, I felt that familiar urge to play games and record videos and change myself all over again. It could have been any of the other LPers that I watch, but none of them had ever said anything like this, so I never felt that spark like I did when Markiplier had said it. After that, I spent days planning out my channel, getting the software and playing with it, and getting ready to chase my dream. Mark gave me that last push I needed, I suppose. My friend got an autograph on a card with mark in a cape at PAX, and it really means a lot to me in several ways. If I reach my goals with this channel, then it means that I can say he was the hero that pulled me out from behind the curtain and onto the stage.
Even if I don’t make it, though, he still convinced me to do what I love, even if what he said wasn’t to me directly.
To Mark, I hope that I get to work beside you one day. It would be a dream come true. I am sure you get that a lot, but we all mean it. I just need some time to catch up is all. I am determined, though, that I will.
And omg I am so sorry I hated you, I swear to all that is holy, you are an amazing, smart, and beautiful person from the bottom to the top, and inside and out.